Midnight

Hey girls,

I guess it isn't really midnight for me, but it is for most of you. And I hope you all fast asleep, like I should be. I wish I could say I was better at this blogging thing, but I'm not. So sorry! I have been so busy trying to keep up with my life and communicate with my husband.

I need some advice from you all! What do you do when communication seems to suck between you and your husband. We are struggling right now. I can't seem to tell him what I need and he can't seem to do the same. We feel like we are in the biggest rut at the moment. And the worst of it all is that my feelings seem constantly hurt. Help!! All I do is cry every time we talk. It's horrible. (No, I'm not pregnant.) I have finally put my trust in that tiny little pill I take every morning. I thought it didn't work last month, but as of Sunday morning...yep...We are in working order, cramps and all. So...I figured that is why I'm weepy, but give me a break!!

If you have some good advice at how to actually talk let me know. We've even done trips together in the past few weeks, and that didn't even help. I'm in the biggest stress week of the 1st semester at school right now. I'm sure that doesn't help us. It's conference week. I'm not getting home until 6:30 or later. Nick is so wonderful and is taking on dinner. It's nice to have the break. But then he wants to have some alone time. He gets home at 3:30...isn't that enough alone time? I'm trying to not be clingy and needy from him. I totally feel this way. He feels like I constantly put guilt trips on him. I'm not doing that on purpose. AHHH....what do I do?

Ok, I better go to bed. Sleep always helps situations. I couldn't even get myself to relax, but letting you girls know what is going on in my life at the moment, is a wonderful thing. Thank you. Pray for me. I don't know how to pray for myself or Nick right at the moment. I know we need God's revelation in our lives, but it's seems pretty quiet right now in that part of my life.

I sure do miss you all. Angie, we are doing everything possible to figure out a way to make the wedding. Thank you for letting me know I have 3 months to rob a bank. :) Ok...I won't rob a bank, but I hope the lotto comes through. :)

I love you tons! Thanks for keeping up with this, so I can read it and know what is going on. I love each and every story!!